{"id":53,"date":"2011-12-22T11:00:32","date_gmt":"2011-12-22T16:00:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mayahoodblog.com\/?p=53"},"modified":"2018-03-06T21:42:20","modified_gmt":"2018-03-07T02:42:20","slug":"ladies-can-you-keep-a-secret","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mayahoodblog.com\/ladies-can-you-keep-a-secret\/","title":{"rendered":"Ladies, can you keep a secret?"},"content":{"rendered":"
I’m going to let you in on a little secret.\u00a0 It’s something that you’ve probably heard about but never knew anyone who experienced it.\u00a0 It’s a dirty little secret that no one talks about, but it happened to me.\u00a0 It’s called the baby blues<\/a>, and yes, I had them!<\/p>\n When I was about 4 months pregnant, my husband and I thought it would be a great idea to renovate our house.\u00a0 Sorry, did I say renovate? I meant tear-down our house.\u00a0 Gut it all out and leave nothing but the outside walls.\u00a0 I bring this up because doing this made me happy.\u00a0 During the 6 month process, which ended the day we brought our son Kyle home from the hospital, I was maybe upset for a total of 2 days.\u00a0 I was never really stressed or overwhelmed, even though\u00a0we had to change contractors half way through and almost\u00a0nothing went according to plan.\u00a0 I was just excited to have the house of my dreams and nothing, not even crazy pregnancy\u00a0hormones,\u00a0could get in the way of that excitement.\u00a0 Which totally ill-prepared me for what was about to come next.<\/p>\n The first\u00a0few days when\u00a0we brought Kyle home\u00a0I was very focused.\u00a0 I had a new-born baby that needed me and I finally got to meet the person that I carried for 9+ months.\u00a0 I loved having our family and friends over to meet Kyle and\u00a0I even\u00a0felt that\u00a0I was sleeping “a lot” for a new mom. But then, out of no where, it hit me.\u00a0 I couldn’t stop the tears at this point, I had no control over them.\u00a0 My husband would ask me what’s wrong, and all I could answer was “nothing”.\u00a0 I wasn’t lying, I just had no idea why I was crying, but I couldn’t stop myself.\u00a0 Next, came the crazy dreams.\u00a0 I dreamed of holding Kyle in my arms, walking down the stairs with him, both of us falling, him hurt and next thing I know, John was divorcing me.\u00a0 I told John about this dream, and being the amazing person he is, he said “I would never divorce you.”\u00a0 Of course, that made me cry even more…<\/p>\n