{"id":1239,"date":"2012-07-18T09:30:19","date_gmt":"2012-07-18T13:30:19","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mayahoodblog.com\/?p=1239"},"modified":"2012-08-14T08:56:04","modified_gmt":"2012-08-14T12:56:04","slug":"my-journey-through-loss-part-2-guest-post","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mayahoodblog.com\/my-journey-through-loss-part-2-guest-post\/","title":{"rendered":"My Journey Through Miscarriage (part 2) – Guest Post"},"content":{"rendered":"
To read part 1, go here: http:\/\/wp.me\/p248bN-jU<\/a><\/p>\n +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++<\/p>\n DAY 8:<\/p>\n I needed to see it with my own eyes. Strangely it wasn\u2019t as traumatizing as I thought it would be. The ultrasound just showed a blob with no heartbeat. It even shrunk to an 8-9 week fetus. I guess that happens over time. I am past the stage of disbelief, and coming to terms with it more and more as each day passes.<\/p>\n I\u2019m supposed to be 12 weeks and 2 days today. We met the OB and she went through our options in detail. I asked a hundred questions about the risks and benefits of each option, but wanted to know most importantly which option was best for avoiding future child bearing problems. We\u2019ve decided to take the Misoprostol<\/a> in a few days. This drug is supposed to induce contractions. It\u2019s our best choice right now as it\u2019s 85 per cent effective in expelling all contents. We may still need to do a D&C. I want to move on and have closure. I want to have a baby and forget this all happened.<\/p>\n I know I\u2019m not alone. Hundreds of women go through this every day. Miscarriage in early pregnancy is common. Studies show that about 10 to 20 per cent of women who know they are pregnant have a miscarriage some time before 20 weeks of pregnancy (that\u2019s about 1 in 5); 80 per cent of these occur in the first 12 weeks. But the actual rate of miscarriage is even higher since many women have very early miscarriages<\/a> without ever realizing they were pregnant. One study that followed women’s hormone levels every day to detect very early pregnancy found a total miscarriage rate of 31 per cent. (source: UpToDate<\/em>).<\/p>\n Although I knew I stand in solidarity with many women, I still felt alone and at fault. When I first heard the news a week ago I blamed myself. What did I do wrong? Did I miss one too many prenatal vitamins? Did I exert myself too much that week?\u00a0 Did I keep my cell phone too close to my uterus? Did I eat too many cookies? Really, these thoughts go through one\u2019s head! But after some research\u2013 I am a facts and numbers kind of girl \u2013 I found out you can\u2019t shake off a good pregnancy.<\/p>\n